Baby,

I can tell you, I really am tired, of giving you a card, or a candy, or a flower, or a post it.  It’s like I just want to give you way more.  I have exhausted my brain so much in thinking about what I can give you or what I can do for you to show you just how much I appreciate you.

I don’t tell you enough just how much I love you, sweetheart.  I don’t show you enough how much I care about you.  I don’t express enough how much you mean to my heart.

You are an incredible mother.  You are so good with the kids.  They are so blessed to have you as a mother.  You are like the perfect mom.  You always think of the kids.  I love the fact that you teach them so much about life.  You teach them manners, and how to approach life.  You are always so thoughtful in everything you always show them.  It’s like you have already lived life all the way through or something.  You have so much wisdom and understanding about how to handle life, and what’s important for our kids to know.

You just know what you’re doing, and it’s been amazing to see that.  I know that you love our kids with all your heart.  It blessed me the other day when you texted me telling me it was incredible for you to be able to experience the babies growing up.  I feel the very same way.

I am so happy I get to watch them together with you.

It’s like you always think about me, but not only that, you are always concerned about me and how I’m doing.  I don’t deserve your love.  It’s like I come from a piece of crap life, A PIECE OF CRAP!, and you took me in regardless as a husband.

I am so grateful that you did that.  I do not deserve who you are.  You are so sweet to me.

I am almost sometimes embarrassed to tell others how good our marriage is, because I am always helping people with their marriages, or their issues, and it’s like I just want to brag on you and tell the world how blessed I am to have you, but since you pretty much smear any other woman, I don’t want anyone to feel like crap; a piece of crap!

I know this hasn’t been the best year, because you have watched me think a ton about the issues at church, but I want to personally thank you for being my rock during this interesting season.  You have been there for me in more ways than you realize.  You have been steady, strong, and stable, for my dumb butt.  You have just been such an incredible support for me.

Rather than spending money on you, I want to invest this into you, baby, because I wanted to do something different for you this year.

I want to handle:

• cleaning the house,
• the rooms,
• helping do laundry
• I’ll do the dishes
• I’ll feed the dog
• I’ll bath the kids
• I’ll clean our rooms
• I’ll give you messages
• I’ll brush the kids’ teeth every night I can
• I’ll make sure the kids are in bed every night

All through the rest of this month.  Basically, I want to serve you every chance I can, baby. I know it’s not much, and not like any other Valentines, but honestly, this time, we don’t have certain money that we’ve had at other times.  Frankly, I stressed this whole week, because I paid bills like crazy.

Honestly, though, I don’t always like the routine stuff we buy each other, because it’s so predictable, but it hardly means something when I watch you spend money on me, and we need it to pay bills.

I’m not trying to sound like a cheap person.  Honestly, I just want to make sure you’re okay.  I have felt bad that I cannot give you more and better take care of your every wish.  We’re working in that directly, slowly, but surely.

I appreciate you going with basically no money this week.  You made cakes and made money and found a way to buy what we needed.  You always have such a good heart in everything you do.  We’re conquering our debt!  But I just appreciate your heart.  I know you grew up with so much, like your parents really took care of you.  I do not see that attitude in you, though.  I see such a humility, and such a gratitude that I can’t believe you have in you!  Whatever your mom taught you, let’s teach our kids.

I know you have felt like you don’t always know where you fit at church and in ministry.  I think in some ways, I probably feel the same way.  People say things all the time that make me wonder why I pour so much into them, only to have them bight back.

You basically fit perfectly anywhere I am at.  I do, although, want to work more at helping make you feel comfortable about serving and helping and helping me lead, etc… I’m sorry I haven’t done that.

I appreciate all your help in dealing with life in these last 7 months.  It’s been so heavy, but not with your love.  It’s been great with your love.

You are always there for me, no matter what.  You’re awesome!

I want you to know this Valentine’s day that I love you with all my heart, and I always appreciate you.  No matter what you feel like, baby, I love you at all times!

You are the most incredible thing that happened to me.  You are so good to me.  I just want to shout (without scary the neighbor) in celebration that I get to be your husband.

I love you baby.  You are the best!  You are incredible!  You are amazing!  I love the fact that I get to live my life with you, sweetheart!

Your cuddle bear,

Cesar